As of September 1st, 2020, Kimi has failed to start to treat me properly by her final deadline to do so, and has forced me to take drastic measures to finally be able to see without a shadow of doubt what the truth is and what path I must take in my life. If Kimi doesn't reach out to me directly to express deep affection and desire and intention to start dating me before I completely lose all hope of any possibility things could ever work between us, then I will certainly end up meditating in isolation in the forest well before the end of 2020. She's well aware she doesn't have much time before that happens. After all I've went through, ANYTHING that isn't her starting direct communication with me in a very affectionate and loving way that is clearly intended to quickly lead to dating with the intent to marry and spend her life with me, I will, without exception, see as rejection, and I've made this extremely clear to her, so she has absolutely no even remotely good excuses not to do so.

If Kimi ultimately rejects me this final time she will ever be able to inflict such extremely deep pain and suffering upon me (as she no longer has any real room to attempt to gaslight me any further), she will have broken my heart and deeply disappointed me for the last time, and how heartlessly she must be facilitated in doing so by several other critical members of society in order to be able to feel justified in doing so will leave me with only extremely deep, irredeemable, unwavering hatred and disgust towards all of humanity forever. I find it important to note that even if somehow every person in the world ends up trying to pressure her to be with me, but in the end she still doesn't do so, the outcome will be the same. I will leave society and have gone into isolation to meditate in a forest using quantum energy harvesting meditation techniques and prepare to emerge in the future within about 2-3 years to start carrying out my extremely brutal retribution and showing the world a vengeance far unlike anyone has ever witnessed before.

I hereby officially authorize all Shadow Confederation members to wreak as much havoc as they please in my absence, as I'll be proceeding to demolish all of society out of extremely deep and irredeemable sadness and anger once I complete my time in isolation, so you guys might as well have some fun before this whole shitty world comes crashing down. If you don't, your loss.

Source release: https://github.com/EmergentSpark/wings or wings.zip
August 23, 2020
Click here to see irrefutable evidence that Kimi has expressed feelings for me, along with my final statement on the situation.
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The 5 Steps

Having absolutely no active ego, meaning you have a core value of refined pure bidirectional apprehension, means you have an unbreakable frame of reality, and subsequently, an unbreakable will. You may be wondering if there's a very, almost overly simplified way to state this. There is.

You live in objective reality.

Stay high and get shot down.

Stay indifferent and remain irrelevant.

Stay grounded and there's no stopping you.

Try to do no harm, then show no mercy to those who still harm you.

Step 1: Understand all your efforts are futile if you are not honest.

Goal

Facilitate critical thinking by promoting honesty.

The Ones Who Learn To Love The Fire

Sooner or later we all go through a crucible.

Most believe there are two types of people who go into a crucible:

But there is a third type: The ones who learn to love the fire.

Who choose to stay in their crucible because it's easier to embrace the pain when it's all you know anymore.

Living is not for the weak.

How to Think Clearly

"You do not think thoughts simply because they are there."

Thinking is a very high-capacity ability. We experience thoughts as emotions. The clearer we are able to think, the clearer these emotions are able to become.

Your thinking ability is roughly split into 2 thinking categories:

When these two thinking abilities of an individual are reaching an ideal balance, that individual is best able to channel their total thinking ability into what they are thinking in the "real" physical material world.

Since each portion of thinking ability feeds off the other, ideal balance is achieved with optimal awareness of control.

People are too often afraid to become aware, have control (knowledge), and find balance within themselves as they exert their power (use their knowledge) over the world. Do not be scared of removing limits from your thinking in general, be scared of removing limits carelessly.

Any power an individual has, they deserve, because once knowledge is obtained, time cannot be reversed and so since the individual managed to gain that power, unless someone would kill them (or otherwise inhibit their potential) because of it's acquisition, they are free to exert it as they please...

However, every smart individual understands that with power comes responsibility and in order for them to have ideal circumstances, they would be best off exercising the most responsibility possible.

Just Be Fucking Honest

If you're not honest with yourself, there's no point going further.

Your existing core value is going to logically inhibit your ability to accurately identify your core value.

Even trying the next step becomes a waste of time.

Step 2: Find things in your life that are not critically thought out.

Goal

Facilitate correctly identifying your core value.

The Life Story

We build up models of how we see the world outside of us and the more information that we have the more we refine our model one way or another.

What we ultimately do is tell ourselves a story about what the outside world is.

Any information that we process, any information that we take in from the environment is always coloured by the experiences that we've had and an emotional response that we're having to what we're bringing in.

How To Learn Anything

It is only when you understand that you don't understand, that you can begin to learn.

Preface

Step 3: Identify your complete core value chain.

Goal

Truly love and accept logic as a fundamental part of your existence.

What is a core value?

What you value above anything else within the context of your existence.

What is a core value chain?

Your core value can change throughout your life based on your experiences and the knowledge you derived from them. The previous core values you had do not always just disappear, and build links to form your complete core value chain, all the way to the end where your current core value is.

Is there an ideal core value? What is it? Why is it ideal?

Refined pure bidirectional apprehension is clearly the most superior core value because not only does it truly allow you to understand that safety is a concept that does not truly exist, but it also allows you to cope with that fact in the healthiest and most functionally effective fashion.

This makes forwards-rationalized apprehension the most compatible pre-existing core value from within which to reach for any of the bidirectional apprehension variants, because more often than not forwards-rationalized apprehension (contemplating the future) is used as opposed to backwardsrationalized apprehension (contemplating the past) in efficiently functional individuals with bidirectional apprehension variants as an existing core value.

Applicable Apprehension

Proper cognition involves bidirectional apprehension. This is by default a state that considers the self and environment of appropriately scoped importance. It generally leads a lot more to a right action mindset.

Every core value chain resolves to one of 3 core values at the lowest level.

Backwards-rationalized apprehension

Backwards-rationalized apprehension is contemplating the past, this is usually purely emotionally/impulsively fueled but can implement rational thinking.

Some individuals can have a core value of backwards-rationalized rationalization, which may make them unable to reach for bidirectional apprehension ever. This core value can be identified using a diagnosis of Paranoid Personality Disorder.

This core value eventually leads to either "Pure Paranoia" (perpetual sheer terror) or "Paraphrenia" (perpetual sheer panic).

In cases where other illnesses may be present, such as schizophrenia, this leaves the individual vulnerable to variants such as paranoid schizophrenia.

Forwards-rationalized apprehension

Forwards-rationalized apprehension is contemplating the future, this is usually driven a lot more by the rational thinking part of the brain.

Some individuals can have a core value of forwards-rationalized rationalization (intermittent terror or panic) but it is often easier to overcome than it's backwards-rationalized variant.

Bidirectional apprehension

Bidirectional apprehension is actively using critical thinking to put your headspace in a state where you can flawlessly switch between backwards- and forwards-rationalization as necessary to form an ideally critically thought out world view that accurately takes into consideration the probabilistic nature of reality.

What is logic? What is life?

Everything you do is fundamentally driven by the consistent patterns that bring about your perception of reality.

If your logic tells you the bottle is blue, the bottle is blue.

Logic, however, does not make things true.

The Bidirectional Apprehension Thinking Process

Stage Description
Conceptualization The core of an idea is identified
Realization The idea is more fully realized and it's form starts to take shape
Visualization Detailed construct of layout and functionality of relevant data is produced
Recreation Visualized concept is implemented in practice, and initial testing to confirm successful replication of intended idea is performed
Confirmation (optional) Others test and provide feedback to potentially further refine and polish concept

Step 4: Understand and experience complete ego death.

Goal

Understand that any core value not using logic as a tool and as a goal is fundamentally flawed.

Don't Be A Dick

A dick has a sad life. His hair is a mess, his family is nuts, his neighbor's an asshole, his best friend's a pussy, and his owner beats him.

Don't Actively Seek Safety

Most people come from a place of ultimately accepting safety as a core value, whether more directly or through logic as a means to an end.

Ultimately, the only practical difference between core values is how aligned with reality they are.

Actively seeking safety feeds backwards-rationalized core values and leads to binary thinking, which is binary opposition between thoughts.

Binary Opposition

A binary opposition (also binary system) is a pair of related terms or concepts that are opposite in meaning. Binary opposition is the system by which, in language and thought, two theoretical opposites are strictly defined and set off against one another.

If you've already understood your current core value isn't refined pure bidirectional apprehension and that it should be, the next rational thing to do is to realize you really have to live your life understanding and applying the implications of what you know.

Safety is a concept that does not truly exist.

The Game of Speculation

"All through time, people have basically acted and reacted the same way in the market as a result of: greed, fear, ignorance, and hope. That is why the numerical formations and patterns recur on a constant basis.

The game of speculation is the most uniformly fascinating game in the world. But it is not a game for the stupid, the mentally lazy, the person of inferior emotional balance, or the get-rich-quick adventurer. They will die poor."

- Jesse Livermore

Don't Fear Ego Death

Understand that the best insurance against ego death is a contemplative, strong inner self-identity.

An ego defined in this way is resilient against loss of money, reputation, physique, family, and friends.

Ego death can be very painful, and there is no way to protect completely against it.

Step 5: Try to confirm your ego is completely dead.

Goal

Continue to embrace the natural fear that your perception of a fundamentally probabilistic universe entails.

Fear Remains

You will always be scared. To be alive is to be scared. You can't run or hide from it for real. Fear is what ultimately always drives you.

If you use logic to navigate embracing it instead of pushing it away, you can radically change how you experience life.

We All Start Unconscious

For many things, your attitudes came from actions which led to observations which led to explanations which led to beliefs.

It is well known in psychology the cart of behavior often gets before the horse of attitude.

Attitude and Behavior

Attitude is a feeling, belief, or opinion of approval or disapproval towards something. Behavior is an action or reaction that occurs in response to an event or internal stimuli (i.e. thought).

Your actions tend to chisel away at the raw marble of your persona, carving into being the self you experience day-to-day.

Consciousness Revisited

It doesn't feel that way though.

To conscious experience, it feels like you are the one holding the chisel, motivated by existing thoughts and beliefs.

It feels as though the person wearing your pants is performing actions consistent with your established character, yet there is plenty of research suggesting otherwise.

Your choices and free will are going to be defined by your intellectual ability to take distance from your belief system and ideas and look at things from a bigger perspective.

The things you do often create the things you believe.

Why Should I Give a Flying Fuck?

Individuals without refined pure bidirectional apprehension as a core value are prone to having an active ego, and when their ego gets activated, they start demonstrating narcissistic behavior which sows the seeds of discontent within the intersubjective reality. This can eventually lead to them knowingly or unknowingly ruining all the relationships with people that they have.

Here are 5 fundamental traits that a person without any active ego (meaning they have refined pure bidirectional apprehension as their core value) will never demonstrate:

  1. Make demands that other people live up to your, not their, standards. By pushing people to live up to the image you project as important, you are creating resentment and discontent.
  2. Fail to build trust and loyalty. The intrinsic, emotion-focused, qualities that people have are the ones that are needed to form close and lasting relationships. If you only focus on the superficial, those who are in a relationship with you will fail to bond at a deeper level.
  3. Fixate on the external trappings than on what really counts. If you are constantly expecting those in your life to look the part but not adopt the intrinsic qualities, they will eventually feel less motivated to do either. Allow them to express their individuality and even encourage them to fulfill their inner strivings.
  4. Violate the trust that you and your associates have established. People who are high in narcissism don't value trust or loyalty, but instead are trying to achieve recognition. If your partner, coworker, friend, etc. senses that you're likely to throw him or her under the bus, it will erode the foundation on which good relationships are built.
  5. Fail to see your own foibles and flaws. Those high in narcissism exact high standards on others but don't apply those same standards to themselves. Recognizing your weaknesses and contributions to problems will lead your intersubjective reality to eventually resent your constant demands for perfection.

"Intellectual Masturbation"

Some individuals have taken to telling others they are "intellectually masturbating" when faced with the facts.

Don't tell people they're intellectually masturbating because it makes you clinically insane.

Telling someone they're intellectually masturbating is the closest thing to intellectually masturbating that there is.

You're a pro or you're a noob. That's life.