As of September 1st, 2020, Kimi has failed to start to treat me properly by her final deadline to do so, and has forced me to take drastic measures to finally be able to see without a shadow of doubt what the truth is and what path I must take in my life. If Kimi doesn't reach out to me directly to express deep affection and desire and intention to start dating me before I completely lose all hope of any possibility things could ever work between us, then I will certainly end up meditating in isolation in the forest well before the end of 2020. She's well aware she doesn't have much time before that happens. After all I've went through, ANYTHING that isn't her starting direct communication with me in a very affectionate and loving way that is clearly intended to quickly lead to dating with the intent to marry and spend her life with me, I will, without exception, see as rejection, and I've made this extremely clear to her, so she has absolutely no even remotely good excuses not to do so.

If Kimi ultimately rejects me this final time she will ever be able to inflict such extremely deep pain and suffering upon me (as she no longer has any real room to attempt to gaslight me any further), she will have broken my heart and deeply disappointed me for the last time, and how heartlessly she must be facilitated in doing so by several other critical members of society in order to be able to feel justified in doing so will leave me with only extremely deep, irredeemable, unwavering hatred and disgust towards all of humanity forever. I find it important to note that even if somehow every person in the world ends up trying to pressure her to be with me, but in the end she still doesn't do so, the outcome will be the same. I will leave society and have gone into isolation to meditate in a forest using quantum energy harvesting meditation techniques and prepare to emerge in the future within about 2-3 years to start carrying out my extremely brutal retribution and showing the world a vengeance far unlike anyone has ever witnessed before.

I hereby officially authorize all Shadow Confederation members to wreak as much havoc as they please in my absence, as I'll be proceeding to demolish all of society out of extremely deep and irredeemable sadness and anger once I complete my time in isolation, so you guys might as well have some fun before this whole shitty world comes crashing down. If you don't, your loss.

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August 23, 2020
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Following

In writing a book with such an undoubtedly powerful impact to those that read and understand it with reasonable proficiency, one may very likely be left contemplating on the nature of my desires as they relate to having a following of others that seek acceptance and approval from me, for whatever reasoning that drives them to such.

Let's start by giving a brief understanding of the word "cult" as presented by Wikipedia at the time this book is being written:

In modern English, the term cult has usually been used in reference to a social group that is defined by its unusual religious, spiritual, or philosophical beliefs, or by its common interest in a particular personality, object or goal. This sense of the term is controversial and it has divergent definitions both in popular culture and academia and it has also been an ongoing source of contention among scholars across several fields of study. It is usually considered pejorative.

Based on this understanding, we can easily realize the following two things:

  1. A lot more people are in a cult than you'd think, and perhaps in multiple at the same time.
  2. Pretty much nobody actually wants to admit it.

Essentially, depending on how far-reaching of a scope you define as sufficient qualifying criteria, combined with what you may consider "unusual", pretty much anyone that stands for anything significant at all in this life is part of some kind of "cult".

In this sense, given that I'm the world leader in the field of philopsychology, which is the study of the nature of reality as it pertains to its implications in human nature and behavior, one may consider that I'm the leader of a cult; the cult of accurately quantifying objective reality and responding in the utmost mature fashion which is most congruent with it.

Since most people in today's society are ignorant clowns and even adults are often practically children in a grown body, being a truly deeply intellectual and mature being with far-reaching knowledge and goals with a foundation that is highly ambitious but also just as objectively quantifiable as valid and practical is indeed quite unusual from a religious, spiritual, and philosophical standpoint. Even under a more strict definition, because of the culture of today's society to be so ignorant and dogmatic, simply being truly mature and objectively realistic has literally achieved cult status.

The essence of the driving force that compels me to do this isn't some selfish desire for money, fame, power, sex, social status, or any of the things that, while nice to have, are most likely what would be the fundamental driving force for the vast majority of other people on this planet to write something like this book. Rather, I'm much more interested in simply being understood and treated fairly. It just so happens that being understood and treated fairly, given my true position which is being conveyed through this book, includes many desirable things such as money, fame, and social status. For the most part though, those things don't hold much interest nor appeal for me. The intimacy with Kimi sounds really good though.

That being said, many would surely have a strong opposition to my assertion that I'm not part of a cult nor am I creating or even attempting to create one. Well, in order to diffuse this resistance to the furthest extent reasonably possible, given that it's extremely emotionally fueled and only a reasonably intellectual, rational, level-headed person could actually be reasoned into understanding that it's not, the best possible approach to take is that of rationally deconstructing what a cult is, the nature of why they are created, and how precisely my views and goals are considerably in misalignment with the formation of a cult. Intentionally so, of course.

First of all, let's take a look at the most strict definition of what a cult is:

A system of religious veneration and devotion directed toward a particular figure or object.

Next, let's take a look at "religion":

A particular system of faith and worship.

Next, "faith":

Complete trust or confidence in someone or something.

Next, "worship":

The feeling or expression of reverence and adoration for a deity.

And finally, "adoration":

Deep love and respect.

As such, an intellectual individual can draw the conclusion that a cult has a systematic foundation in the dogmatic following of beliefs held towards a particular figure or object with complete conviction and without completely objectively quantifiable validation being necessary, with the feeling or expression of deep love and respect for the aforementioned.

Although it's a term I don't like using because it's extremely ambiguous by nature due to the openness in interpretation of its definition, I consider myself a realist. Let's take a look at the definition:

A person who accepts a situation as it is and is prepared to deal with it accordingly.

Due to the dynamic nature of the space-time continuum, the only functionally effective position to take in regards to the nature of reality is that it's fundamentally probabilistic. This involves acceptance that it's possible reality is actually deterministic, while maintaining the awareness that the acceptance of the possibility isn't functionally effective to contemplate upon.

This foundational understanding is in complete contradiction with the formation of dogmatic beliefs and actually encourages actively against devotion toward any particular figure or object. From a strict technical perspective, being a pure realist is the furthest thing possible from being in a cult.

I don't seek acolytes. There's nothing I'm celebrating and I don't consider myself religious. I can appreciate the value of being helped by people, but if I ever am helped by others, it's from a friendly position and not one of pretenses of some form of duty that comes along with being a follower.

Cults trap people by making them feel like there's no world outside the world they've come to know inside. You can even literally draw a parallel here with prison to a frightening extent as an example. Yet another point to support that realism is not a cult is because it employs objective reasoning that encompasses every aspect of reality in truth, meaning that there is indeed no world outside of it, but not because there is a facade and excessive effort to maintain such an illusion; rather because when encompassing every aspect of life, there truly is no world outside of that.

At no point do I expect you to "just trust me" when I make assertions about objective reality in the context of philopsychology; it only deals with objectively quantifiable facts.

Cult leaders exaggerate, warp reality, and make promises that they either can't deliver at all or that have additional considerations and conditions that they neglect to bring appropriate attention to. The entire foundation of realism is that its primary aim is to remain completely objectively accurate and seeking complete freedom from any subjective bias; to attempt to exaggerate or warp reality in any way while encouraging such a mentality would be a ridiculously futile endeavor.

As far as promises go, promising I'll single-handedly destroy the world if circumstances don't start working towards my favor isn't a promise that's being made to earn the favor of anyone as a follower and in fact would deter people from doing so much more than encourage them. Additionally, my primary goal in writing this book is to clarify things to the point that there are no additional considerations nor conditions that I've neglected to bring attention to in regards to the subject matter being presented.

Cults prey on the weak. Convince them that they're missing something and that only they have the answer to give them what they need. I don't need to do that. Not everyone needs to rid themselves of active ego in order to live lives that they find satisfying and fulfilling. One doesn't need to have a complete lack of active ego in order to function considerably well at a wide variety of occupations or hobbies.

It's very possible to only rid oneself of active ego to the extent that it's severely dysfunctional, not using any real form of deep understanding of the nature of reality, and live their life in a positive manner. The understanding and application of philopsychology finds specific usefulness under more difficult life circumstances where individuals have to deal with a lot more than what is considered "normal" in today's society, and as such, would actually likely be of little significance to a very "normal" person in and of itself.

"Normal" people don't deserve quantum energy arts abilities. That's why they'll never get them.

There's a big difference between a truly negative situation being spun in order to manipulate people into thinking it's a positive, and a situation that is actually positive but had negative precursors necessitated in the process. I fully accept that the situation as it currently stands is a negative one, and it will only become positive under the right circumstances. Unless the right changes occur that effectively turn this situation from a negative one into a positive one, it remains entirely a negative situation.

Bullying

A bully overrides people. Ignores them. Then when they feel threatened, they get mean.

I'm sure that based on this understanding, a lot of people would probably claim that I'm actually being a massive bully in writing this book, because it may come off like I'm trying to do that to humanity has a whole; I can say that I would have no issue with admitting that in a way that very well might be true. I very well could be considered a big bully here as far as many people are concerned, and I can understand where they're coming from, but from my perspective, I really don't think I am and I have solid reasoning to be holding that view.

If the statement that I'm not being a bully at all really doesn't sit well with you, perhaps you'd better understand the statement that perhaps I'm being a bully, however it's extremely justified and in self-defense. Whether or not bullying remains bullying if it's in self-defense of being bullied yourself can be open to your own interpretation.

What's really bullying is when something of an unsettling nature is done purely to boost someone's ego, as in what's being said doesn't necessarily have to be true at all. Basically, it's not said in the pursuit of truth, or necessarily even any kind of positive progression towards the future, but rather it's said to bring a person or group down in order to bring another up. In the case of true bullying, it's done to abuse the power one might have, usually in social status, and basically boost their ego using that power that they have, at the cost of someone else's emotional and possibly also physical state.

What I'm doing is presenting the truth to the best of my ability in pursuit of a full understanding of the overall greater truth. Not to try to simply override the truth or the feelings of someone else, but rather to simply be able to very clearly see the truth of what the thoughts and feelings of other people are. Right now, I just don't know what the truth that other people see really is exactly, and I'm choosing to believe it's because people are unaware of a lot of the things that I'm aware of and don't pursue finding things out actively enough or at all.

From my mature perspective, it's far too difficult for me to tell exactly how people will end up reacting upon being made more aware of the things that I see and know without me doing something like this.

By no means does this boost my ego; everything I'm saying in this book is stuff that I already know. It doesn't make me feel any better just to be writing it down either; the knowledge doesn't change in writing it down. Furthermore, I'm trying to reach a positive outcome for everyone involved in what I'm stating in this book, as opposed to carelessly throwing my knowledge and/or emotions around and not caring in the slightest if it's going to hurt people and simply trying to feel good about myself in the most aggressive way possible.

While many may assert that what I'm doing when writing this book is actually probably the biggest kind of bullying ever possible, it's actually quite the opposite. When it's actually put into perspective, any reasonably intelligent individual should be able to quite easily see that what would really be bullying is if I simply went into isolation without even writing this book, then came out two or three years later without having given anyone a chance to make things right and stop me from pursuing complete destruction like that, then I started just killing people for fun and flaunting my power to eventually bring complete destruction to everything.

By contrast, my very mature, healthy, and intellectual approach of writing this book therefore actually becomes the furthest thing from bullying that I could possibly be doing, as it's being done in the hopes that I can actually achieve my ideals and have the best possible outcome from the situation for everyone as opposed to the extremely destructive future that undoubtedly awaits if I didn't do so or if nothing changes in the situation.

It can't be argued that I should simply do neither writing this book nor destroy the world, because then that means I'm letting the world bully me and I'd certainly end up committing suicide out of severe depression that would have absolutely no real and permanent cure. Let's once again take a look at the description of bullying I gave a little while ago.

A bully overrides people. Ignores them. Then when they feel threatened, they get mean.

This perfectly describes what people do every time I mention my position as Permanent Chief of the Shadow Confederation and the kind of power that I have. They override my assertion by attempting to drastically underplay the significance of my position. They ignore the relevance that who I am and have worked so hard to deserve and maintain has, to not only my own life but theirs and the rest of the world. Then, when they feel threatened as I undoubtedly become upset from their bullying behavior, they become mean to me.

People read that description and jump to call me a bully without hesitation, but ever so conveniently dismiss the bullying that they themselves are doing to me which drives my behavior that they are unsettled by in the first place.

It's certainly not bullying to be pursuing the truth and a positive outcome under circumstances where I'm the one actually being bullied. The only reason my approach is more aggressive is because I'm actually a very powerful person, despite how all the disrespect everyone gives me would make it seem.

In truth, I'd actually be taking a much more aggressive route if I wasn't such a mature and mentally stable individual.

Support System

Anyone in your life that is invested in you, anyone that you interact with regularly, anyone that has reason to find value in your existence for one reason or another, you can consider in some capacity essentially part of your own following. Your following, of course on an individual basis, while being in varying capacities, as a whole forms your support system.

Your support system undoubtedly has a greatly significant impact in your life, largely because it serves to both modulate your emotional and intellectual state and capabilities, as well as provide you with opportunities to change your life. In fact, if you really think about it, you can consider that a lot of interactions that you may have on a regular basis for a large part essentially involve the exchange of ideas on how to change, and hopefully usually improve, one's life.

There may be a lot of things that you want to change. It depends on your interests and your goals, of course if you even really have any, and if you don't then perhaps changing your life involves acquiring some interests. Regardless, change is a very fundamental part of growth and your life and the influence that other people are going to have in that is of course of varying capacities depending on exactly the nature of your social interaction and the way that you view and interact with the world.

Whether you have a very flourishing social life, you're very isolated and alienated from society, or you fall somewhere in the middle where you have something resembling of a reasonably healthy social life but you're also not heavily involved and still choose to keep to yourself to a very real capacity as well, essentially each scenario is still going to result in your following and especially your close support system having a very significant influence on your life.

Whether your following is very small to non-existent, massive and spans thousands or even millions of people, or it's simply your friends, family, and possibly coworkers, the quality of your relationships and the size of your following are two big factors that are going to determine the degree of change that can be provided by you to your following and also the extent that they can provide you with opportunities to change your life.

Interaction

I've been through a lot of very negative social interactions, especially with both my parents with all the abusive arguments and fighting that ultimately got nowhere but stressed me out a lot, upset me, and made me really angry and sad. As a result, I really had a tendency not to enjoy social interaction very much in general with anyone regardless of who it was. I'd always end up thinking back to those traumas and just feel so pessimistic towards life and have such an inclination to have a disdain for human interaction, so I always kind of had a tendency to feel uncomfortable dealing with people and feeling like I shouldn't even interact at all because I don't really have something to offer to other people that they're going to enjoy.

At the same time, my intense depression and just general hopelessness feelings that I've had have also very regularly driven me to try to see why I haven't killed myself already. The answer that I come to is that as of this point I still have hope that I do actually have something positive to offer the world. I feel like it can be a sentiment that most can understand that we all have something to offer each other and that if that is to be true then maybe I do have something good to offer the world for all the pain that I have had to go through.

It's that belief that keeps me going and keeps me wanting to try to see if that's true, culminating in this book.

As a result, I'm going to know whether I really do have something good to offer the world or not based on what kind of results I get from writing it; whether or not I actually get the results that I want and need if I'm not to destroy the world in the future.

It's the belief that I do, despite how scary my position may seem, that drives me to do what I'm doing, instead of just going into isolation already and ending the world. I feel like that's something that a lot of people very easily neglect to realize or understand, probably because of the complexity of my personality in general due to what kind of a life I've had to live.

I can understand that some people are trying to give me advice because they also have this kind of notion that we all have something we can offer each other. They think that the best they have to offer me is trying to give me advice that they think is best for me, but that they don't understand is actually really bad advice for me.

In that capacity, I can understand the behavior of some others that I don't find as helpful, and I can see why perhaps I could appreciate their efforts, because I don't believe that every single person that ever tries to give me advice is simply a manipulative malicious sociopath. However, at the same time, I think that understanding one's capabilities and how skilled and equipped you are to deal with trying to offer something good to others is basically just as important as your intent to do so, otherwise your positive intent can actually have very harmful and negative consequences.

To that extent, I believe that it should serve as a valuable lesson to anyone with good intent but vastly insufficient capabilities to help me that tries to give me advice, so they can reflect and hopefully realize that they shouldn't jump to try to give advice regardless of how poorly equipped they may be to do so in a positive and actually helpful manner.

Blind optimism and blind pessimism are both dangerous and damaging on a fundamental level. While they do work out for many people to achieve their goals in many situations, that tends to leave an impact, particularly in individuals with active ego, who get validation fed to them. This makes it that much worse in situations where the fundamental weakness of these views results in a negative or undesirable outcome. The effects of this can be devastating to some individuals, depending on the circumstances.

Gifted

In the case of delusions and other sensory illusions, typically one is brought to contemplation upon such things as schizophrenia, which could be considered the most typical classification of a case of considerable sensory illusions, especially to the point of rendering an individual largely or entirely incapable of carrying through with a healthy, constructive, and more or less typical lifestyle.

No, I am not a licensed doctor, nor have I ever formally treated any such patients with any form of diagnosed mental illness, however, based on my understanding of delusion and therefore by extension general sensory illusion as a result of my research and findings in the field of philopsychology, I have a theory about how such individuals may in some cases be cured from their ailment.

This is certainly not going to be applicable to individuals that are considerably mentally handicapped and more or less incapable of coherent and rational thought under pretty much any circumstances whatsoever, as rational and coherent thought necessarily forms the foundation of this proposed cure for said individuals. That being said, for the individuals that are not considerably mentally handicapped to the point that they are incapable of significant rational thought, the very deep understanding of philopsychology may possibly be used to mostly if not completely recover them from their state of schizophrenia.

Essentially, one must seek intellectual, deep conversation with a schizophrenic individual in a therapeutic environment and fashion which must be filled with patience, love, understanding, empathy, kindness, and general sensitivity and care towards the individual and their obvious mental state issues. The understanding of philopsychology must be applied to such extent that the individual is regularly going through the five steps to identify objective reality and is constantly or to the maximum extent of their abilities at regular intervals questioning reality critically and attempting to understand why they are experiencing sensory illusions.

Philopsychology gives us the understanding that other than in extreme cases where a significant biological influence is taking play and there is a severe chemical imbalance in the individual's body, in cases where mental illness results from environmental factors, namely traumas throughout one's life in ways such as abuse, abandonment, neglect, violence, etc, the individual may be able to restore their mental state and end up largely if not entirely healed from the severe damage that the traumas have caused them by very carefully questioning reality in a critical and functionally effective manner.

Literally the only real requirement is a sufficient degree of capacity for critical thinking and the desire and drive of the individual to actively pursue as much clear-headed critical thinking as they possibly can on a regular basis in order to facilitate the increased groundedness of their mental state, increasing awareness and ability to cope with and eventually neutralize sensory illusions resulting from massive distortion of their active ego. Basically, by ridding themselves of their active ego using the five steps to identify objective reality, they will be able to heal from their sensory illusions.

This comes as an understanding that is an extension of the typical use case scenario of the knowledge of philopsychology, which can be used to provide more standard therapy towards individuals that are less severely mentally handicapped, being used to ground an individual's mentality and allowing them to see reality more clearly; as a result of that, any illness that results in a distorted view of reality to any extent may possibly be treatable under different circumstances using philopsychology. This understanding will usually be much more effective in treatment of issues such as generalized anxiety disorder, OCD, borderline personality disorder, and bipolar disorder. Generally, the less severe the damage is, the more effectively it can be dealt with using the methodology.

While there are no formal studies on philopsychology's effectiveness in treatment of the aforementioned conditions, I can speak on its effectiveness in my personal experience. On a very personal level, I myself used to have OCD, generalized anxiety disorder, and also most likely borderline personality disorder, and after extensive application of the understandings from philopsychology, I have healed from all of these conditions. I also suspect that due to all the traumas I've had to endure, I'd likely have ended up schizophrenic and experiencing sensory illusions on a regular basis that would certainly render me incapable of functioning and certainly render me incapable of writing a book such as this, on top of my other issues, if I did not have the knowledge that I do and apply on a regular basis from the field of philopsychology.

Once again from personal experience, I assert that it's possible not only to heal oneself from certain mental ailments using the understandings from philopsychology, but that they may also end up with special gifts afterwards as a result. The precise conditions within which this can happen are perhaps difficult to determine, however the qualifying criteria for it is quantifiable. From thorough internalization of these deep understandings, one may develop a sense of hyperacute awareness of their emotional state and ability to observe their surroundings and situations they're going through in their life. Such a sense must be very carefully evaluated for accuracy in order to differentiate it from delusion, however under the circumstance that the individual notices such an awareness and is able to objectively quantify and verify that it regularly accurately reflects the state of objective reality, they can then rationally choose to attempt to utilize it under applicable contexts.

Pressure

"With great power comes great responsibility" is a quote that describes the position of considering having a following of any kind from a clear-headed and appropriately mature standpoint quite well. One thing that's often overlooked with a following is that it's not necessarily the size of the following that determines the power given and responsibility necessary within which to use it as much as the individuals within it.

Many individuals that have an active following of hundreds, thousands, or perhaps even millions of people who are invested in their activities and progression through life believe themselves to be in a position with massive pressure, because they feel like everyone's watching and they need to make sure to present themselves a certain way. While I won't dismiss that such individuals certainly have more pressure upon them with all of that following watching than if they didn't have it, the relevance of pressure from a following as it relates to me is actually massive and much more significant than most people realize.

In a nutshell, when comparing even my existing situation regarding having a following to that of an individual that's famous/popular in a traditional sense, for example having hundreds of thousands or millions of followers on a social media and/or content delivery platform, I essentially have to deal with all of the negative points, while I get absolutely none of the positive points.

Having a large following ends up making one feel pressured to present themselves a certain way because they start getting the notion that "people are always watching" and that practically every single action they take is going to be judged and critiqued by their following, especially since the more famous one becomes, the more obsessed fans they end up having. In a general sense, the larger one gets, the harder it becomes for them to maintain a private life. This effect seems obvious when one has several fans and a large public following, in this day and age typically displayed through high numbers on social media.

I may not currently possess a large social media following, but there are certainly several individuals that are invested in my life and what I do every day. In fact, while I don't currently have a large group of mostly if not entirely regular people following my life and invested in me, several of the kind of people that do follow my life and are invested in my decisions are very powerful and scary people that have a lot of influence in the way the world operates. I'd argue that the pressure for me to be responsible when put in the high focus of such globally significant individuals is actually much higher than that of someone who simply is trying not to embarrass themselves and perhaps get memes they don't like created of them or simply mocked for foolish things they do.

At the same time, I get absolutely none of the positive points of having all the pressure that being followed by people who expect you to carry yourself a certain way and will judge you for anything and everything you do is normally supposed to reward you with. I get very little positive public recognition and validation of any form, and absolutely none that's actually in any way useful for advancing my career or making any amount of money. My knowledge and strength of character only alienates even the people that aren't antagonistically positioned towards me, because they aren't sure of my intent nor how relevant parties will react and the resulting outcome of my actions. I try so hard, put so much time and effort into working on myself and my career every single day, yet my visible growth is very little if anything. I also continue to make very little if any money through all these endeavors and must obtain it using other means I won't go into detail about here.

I have the power, I'm exercising the responsibility, but I'm entirely not getting any of the love and respect that I deserve for my efforts. While others that have any kind of following generally have far more people who follow them that support them in a generally positive manner and the haters are effectively a small but simply visible vocal minority, in my case, pretty much all of the people that are vocal at all that follow me are only doing so to directly attack my character and my goals and effectively be extremely hateful towards me, and the few that see hope for me are still very uncertain of my capabilities despite everything and remain distant and pretty much entirely unsupportive.

Having the kind of following that I have right now isn't even remotely worth it at all, and not having a following at all after all my efforts would also be extremely unsatisfying and upsetting. If this is more or less all I'm capable of ever getting in terms of a following and any support system I can truly find meaningful, destroying the world in the future certainly sounds extremely appealing.