As of September 1st, 2020, Kimi has failed to start to treat me properly by her final deadline to do so, and has forced me to take drastic measures to finally be able to see without a shadow of doubt what the truth is and what path I must take in my life. If Kimi doesn't reach out to me directly to express deep affection and desire and intention to start dating me before I completely lose all hope of any possibility things could ever work between us, then I will certainly end up meditating in isolation in the forest well before the end of 2020. She's well aware she doesn't have much time before that happens. After all I've went through, ANYTHING that isn't her starting direct communication with me in a very affectionate and loving way that is clearly intended to quickly lead to dating with the intent to marry and spend her life with me, I will, without exception, see as rejection, and I've made this extremely clear to her, so she has absolutely no even remotely good excuses not to do so.

If Kimi ultimately rejects me this final time she will ever be able to inflict such extremely deep pain and suffering upon me (as she no longer has any real room to attempt to gaslight me any further), she will have broken my heart and deeply disappointed me for the last time, and how heartlessly she must be facilitated in doing so by several other critical members of society in order to be able to feel justified in doing so will leave me with only extremely deep, irredeemable, unwavering hatred and disgust towards all of humanity forever. I find it important to note that even if somehow every person in the world ends up trying to pressure her to be with me, but in the end she still doesn't do so, the outcome will be the same. I will leave society and have gone into isolation to meditate in a forest using quantum energy harvesting meditation techniques and prepare to emerge in the future within about 2-3 years to start carrying out my extremely brutal retribution and showing the world a vengeance far unlike anyone has ever witnessed before.

I hereby officially authorize all Shadow Confederation members to wreak as much havoc as they please in my absence, as I'll be proceeding to demolish all of society out of extremely deep and irredeemable sadness and anger once I complete my time in isolation, so you guys might as well have some fun before this whole shitty world comes crashing down. If you don't, your loss.

Source release: https://github.com/EmergentSpark/wings or wings.zip
August 23, 2020
Click here to see irrefutable evidence that Kimi has expressed feelings for me, along with my final statement on the situation.
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Fear

Today's society is a society filled with fear and ignorance. Most people fit into a mold because that's what the people around them have told them to do and they don't want to think outside the box. Many people are obese. Many people are depressed. Many people try to lead a simple life without any really ambitious goals. It's a mentality born from seeking safety and comfort at the detriment of growth and maximizing potential.

Seeing objective reality through the lens of a core value of refined pure bidirectional apprehension is not a place where the faint of heart find comfort or solace. It's not for the average person who just wants to get a job, get married, have kids, and die. It's not for the lazy or simple-minded that find the world to not be a brutally cutthroat place, or don't really care if they do.

It is a place where individuals that truly strive for inner growth and maximizing their potential can find further enlightenment on their path to fulfilling their dreams and experiencing their journey for its maximum potential. A place where the hardened can fortify and purify their soul. A place where humans learn to become gods.

Fear-based emotion works on the assumption that purely rational thinking can be wrong which in reality is just the emotional aspect of thought processes causing a skewed perception of ultimately rational thinking.

The description of objective reality on this site is actually a carefully formed, not rationally falsifiable definition of what objective reality is, which can simultaneously permanently change your core value to bidirectional apprehension when followed perfectly, step by step.

This removes all delusion from all fear-based emotions one experiences.

Once you have adopted a bidirectional apprehension variant as your core value, it is unlikely to have your core value degrade. You are permanently a smarter person.

Bidirectional apprehension might sound scary, but it's not terrifying at all. No matter what your existing core value is, if it is not bidirectional apprehension, it can be connected to either backward-rationalized apprehension or forward-rationalized apprehension at the root level of the core value chain; you are already always subconsciously in fear whether you're in denial of it or not.

The main difference is you are more firmly rooted in your denial because you rationalize solely based on reactive neural networks from emotional responses instead of utilizing neural networks that also react from logical responses to a fuller extent. This is what makes forward-rationalized apprehension much more powerful as a long-term core value before switching to bidirectional apprehension, because it means your existing mindset is already more aligned with the bidirectional energy flow.

Backwards-rationalized apprehension focuses primarily on the past when being reactive to logical stimuli (which is actually directional apprehension flow) whereas forwards-rationalized apprehension focuses primarily on the future when being reactive to logical stimuli. Since a bidirectional apprehension core value far more often will focus on forward-rationalized apprehension, this explains both why it is more ideal as a precursory core value, as well as why most people will encounter it as a transitional core value towards bidirectional apprehension for at least some period of time.

Savage

In this life, there are two primary types of fear: apprehension and terror.

Terror is a type of fear that is overpowering, overwhelming, and detrimentally crippling the vast majority of the time. It is very bad.

Apprehension is a much more tame fear that is more about being calculative and attempting to see potentially negative outcomes in life for what they are: possibilities. It is empowering, encouraging, and fundamentally efficient when channeled correctly.

You can choose to accept fear as a natural part of reality and try to channel it correctly, or you can be a pussy and try to run and hide from it.

But guess what? Running from fear only makes it worse later.

When people hear the word "savage", they usually think of someone who is like a wild animal; impulsive, aggressive, and filled with ego.

But there are two kinds of savagery in this world.

As a result, when someone says they are a savage, you can instantly draw the following conclusion: They are either really smart or really stupid.

Control

When you are facing fear

Do you see yourself as a victim, or are you taking responsibility for what happens to you in life?

The components of a more powerful way of living

Emotions to notice and turn around

There is an immediate assumption that negative is realistic and positive is unrealistic.

The subconscious does not judge, it believes what it is fed.

"Ships in harbor are safe, but that's not what ships are built for."

Just do it

In order to truly see you must know what it means to truly look. What there is, is not simply what is in front of you, it is a combination of what's in front of you with the possibilities of what could be next.

It is easy to get discouraged when there seems like there is a long way to go, but the harder the struggle, the more unique and valuable the reward.

What makes people great is the greatness they find in themselves to face challenges with a rational standpoint, while not seeing rationality as a weight that drags the calculations and decisions one makes down.

One should ultimately aim to be fully engaged in what they are doing in every moment they are in and see each moment as fundamental to the next, dancing from one moment to the next in a fun way.

Truly fully being in the moment does not mean forgetting or ignoring the past or the future, it means that you have put the right amount of thought into the past and the future to see what the current moment really means to you.

Ignoring the past means you are ignoring lessons you can learn. Ignoring the future means you are ignoring goals you can set.

When you feel like you're down, when you feel like you're out, when you feel like there's nothing left... That's when you need to keep pushing. That's when you grow. That's when you reach new limits you didn't think were possible.

You have to be realistic and re-evaluate your goals and find somewhere there is new room for growth and improvement if you feel stuck.

Saying you don't believe in yourself makes it sound depressing. But if you look at it as just trying to prevent being overconfident instead you can be happy and motivated.

The human mind can rationalize pretty much anything. Once you realize how ridiculous that is, the ridiculous shit that happens doesn't really surprise you, and you feel empowered instead of weakened.

You never know but how much knowing is enough to know you don't need to care. Knowing you're always guessing in a way is really important. Just as important as knowing you can try to limit the guessing as much as possible for the best possible results.

You are intended to learn your path to greatness. You can find a way to feel successful in your own eyes always. People can label and judge you, but your own labeling and judgement of yourself is going to affect you the most. Understanding you can always become stronger is the key to discovering who you really can be.

Give yourself positive affirmation

An affirmation is a positive statement that something is already happening.

Don't let fear control you. When making positive affirmations:

Out talk your negativity.

No extra time is required.

Write 50 things you are happy exist in your day before you sleep.

Say yes to your universe.

Feel the fear and do it anyway.

Religion

Religious belief is subjective.

While I don't inherently have a problem with anyone who holds religious beliefs, I do consider them of inferior intellect and critical thinking abilities. As I've previously established, all religions are actually cults. How widespread or generally accepted a cult is doesn't make it any more of a credible source that accurately reflects reality, nor does it make it any less of a cult in the strictest definition previously given.

That being said, I don't inherently have a problem with such people because I realize it improves the quality of life of many people to have this belief. There are many thoughts and feelings that people don't have answers to and want the answers to, and religion gives them peace. It can also act as a guide towards taking positive action in difficult situations, and can even sometimes facilitate forming positive connections with other people who share such beliefs. I see no reason to bash people for these things.

However, I see religion as a band-aid fix on a bigger existential issue that over time tends to have a detrimental effect on an individual's open-mindedness and critical thinking abilities, and as such I find it to be a sub-optimal way of living life.

I would like to mention that I'm not trying to upset anyone with the following. I'm simply stating facts. These facts may not sit well with your belief system, but that's fine, because it's not called a "fact system" so you're free to believe what you want. As such, I do not by any means assert that you should agree with the contents of this chapter. If you want to believe things that aren't firmly grounded in reality with quantifiable evidence and a high degree of rational backing, it's your prerogative to do so.

"Faith is the great cop-out, the great excuse to evade the need to think and evaluate evidence. Faith is belief in spite of, even perhaps because of, the lack of evidence." - Richard Dawkins

"God" is an Enthymeme

God as it is commonly defined and used is what is known formally as an "enthymeme".

First, let's look at the standard layout of an enthymeme.

Now, let's apply it to how people use it to describe "God".

An enthymeme is also known as a rhetorical syllogism. A syllogism is essentially a statement that makes an assertion about a conclusion based on premises. The difference between a rhetorical syllogism and a regular one is that a rhetorical syllogism only presents an assertion for the sake of rhetoric, not to attempt to understand the truth.

With any reasonable level of intelligence, you should easily be able to see why it would be problematic to live your life based around a rhetorical syllogism.

Understanding

We cannot understand everything because our brains are only capable of thinking within a limited plane with 2 extents: existence and non-existence. Every single thought we produce is contained within these parameters, and the balance our brain achieves in order to consciously realize a thought as such is an imbalance of that plane in a certain way. This offset in balance is an emotion.

In order to truly understand -everything-, we would also have to truly understand -nothing-; because our bodies are not physically capable of understanding -absolutely nothing- once we have understood anything at all, we can likewise never truly understand -everything-.

This is a truly vital realization, as it has 2 main implications:

  1. We can never know exactly what happens when we die. We can never truly experience death at all without dying because by definition, death is permanent and irreversible.
  2. No form of religious deity perceivable exists. Because of how any and all gods are defined, they are never truly perceivable while alive. This does a very good job of facilitating the forming of doubt in relation to the topic further within a person.

Essentially, a belief in God comes from a fear of death. One definitive thing people assert about God's existence is that you will go to heaven (or hell, but regardless, you get judged by him first, still asserting his existence in relation to the issue) once you die.

This belief is a belief seeded from other people, retained by a fear of death governed by his existence. What people are really seeking in the belief of God is an attempt to understand -everything-, including death.

Think about how religion defines you relative to God: you BELIEVE in his existence.

If you know of his existence, you no longer have any reason to fear him since you have absolutely no doubt in his existence.

People who believe in God typically tend to ignore this because it is assumed that you will only ever see him once you die.

What all the unenlightened refer to as God is actually just a manifestation of fear they hold deep inside. Created by external sources, retained by them themselves, because of lack of certainty about how the world was created and what happens to them when they die.

Someone initially feeds to them that "God" created it, and that they will go to him once they die, and they build their own beliefs further from there.

Think about how god is perceived: VERY DIFFERENTLY BY EACH PERSON!

If you ask different people, the best they can do to prove God exists is show you something they believe he made. "The clouds in the sky", "this piece of paper", "you" (as in a human being).

If you present to someone who believes in God that God did not make human beings, their parents did, then they just say God created your parents and their parents and so on.

If you ask them, "But how do you know?", they will probably respond with something which more or less means "Because God exists." So God exists because you exist and you exist because God exists? That means if you didn't exist, God wouldn't exist? But according to your definition of God, that is not the case.

Religion, The Ultimate LSD Trip

Because religion is subjective and not objective, that means that any "truths" contained within it are within the scope of one's personal experience.

Similarly, any "truths" contained within a psychedelic LSD trip are also contained within the scope of one's personal experience.

In this fashion, religion can be likened to an LSD trip.

The individual takes comfort in believing what they want to believe over what objectivity provides them.

The difference is religion is not as blatantly unnatural to less logical thinkers than an LSD trip is, so they buy it as reality.

People often like to use the argument/justify belief with saying something to the effect as "even if it's not real, on the off chance that it is, I don't lose anything by believing", using religion as an "emergency escape" or just believing to the extent that makes them comfortable. "God doesn't make mistakes as everything He makes He said it is good!"

Cancer is pretty damn good right?

Since you believe God to be omnipotent, that means you believe he created all the things in existence. Not just the pleasant things or what you want to say he did.

You can't pick and choose what is God's doing and what isn't while at the same time saying God controls everything.

Either God doesn't control everything, in which case everything else you believe in crumbles apart, or since he does control everything, he made everything, including all the horrible diseases, disabled individuals, and everything unpleasant/unfortunate in the world too.

In that case, he's more so an evil ruler that likes to watch us suffer and struggle through life (because like it or not life is a constant struggle) and for what purpose? His own amusement. What a good guy, huh? That's who you're believing in.

The bible says the bible is right so you believe it? The internet often does the same, do you believe everything you read online? Of course not!

Do research, think logically and take a step back to examine what you are dedicating your life to. Otherwise you are just another mindless religious follower (regardless of your holy text of choice) falling in line to pay the establishment you follow for lying to you.

If you're looking for real information, you need to reference multiple sources before coming to a conclusion. Preferably something not quite so biased as a targeted holy text.

Objective Reality is The Real God

If god is always right

And what is right is real

That means god is always real

And the only thing that is always right is objective reality

Because objective reality is the only thing that is always going to be real

Therefore god is objective reality

"God" is really a synonym for reality.

The reality of reality is that every person is intended to be different and hold different beliefs and perceptions of their internal and external worlds. All the various interpretations of reality are merely a compliment to the complex nature of the essence of life and all that can possibly be perceived to be what is known to each individual as real.

In a sense, everyone is their own "god". We control what we're thinking, what we're saying, what we're doing, to a very large extent. At the least, it isn't all too useful to believe otherwise.

Instead of looking to mindless rhetoric, you can look within yourself for answers. It's not always easy, but when did life come with any guarantees it was easy?

Being creative is being a little bit crazy in just the right vibration. With that in mind, you should understand, God is completely insane.

Realism

Being a realist is not "right" or "wrong", it is simply a wholly logical perspective on the topic of religion. Because religion is entirely based on emotions, an entirely logical view towards the topic chooses to essentially ignore it as a factor of one's existence entirely, except for the obvious fact that it can be a reason that can end that existence at any time.

Logically speaking, the existence of any religious God cannot be proved or disproved based on how God is defined, therefore the statement that God exists is, objectively speaking, simply a suggestion and not a fact. Even if you are blind, deaf, and mute, however, objective reality can still firmly prove its existence to you.

To put things into perspective, one can assert that a pink unicorn exists within their basement, however it cannot be seen, touched, smelled, or otherwise have it's existence verified in any logical way via available human senses or reasoning; it is simply said that it exists.

Most people would take the logical view on the topic that because the suggestion is defined within parameters that do not make it verifiable in any way, and therefore that is the only reason it also cannot be proven incorrect, that it is merely a belief of the one making the suggestion and will not believe it is the truth because they recognize that in that case, it is only as real as they make it to themselves; they will likely come to the conclusion that the one making the statement about the pink unicorn and taking it seriously is on one or more mind-altering substances or perhaps clinically insane.

Perspective

If I try to imagine the active presence of an entity defined in the fashion God typically is being present with dialogue in my life, it doesn't seem difficult to define what it would be like.

The strength and high degree of rational thinking typically associated with males, combined with the tender understanding typically associated with females.

Acutely aware of the facts that govern objective reality in a completely holistic manner, while also being acutely aware of their emotional impact upon myself and others.

Wise to the deepest extents and yet humble enough not to attempt to take advantage of it and use me for something in order to share.

Sounds just like the voice inside my head.

I think the only reason people have trouble "talking to God" is because they're just really bad at critical thinking and/or emotional awareness. You need a very high degree of both in order to experience such a meaningful dialogue.

Drugs

Many people are terrified of drugs. For some, even if they have to take them because they are sick or in great pain, they do so hesitantly.

This is not necessarily a purely negative approach to the topic, as many people are not intelligent enough to use drugs properly in a non-habit-forming fashion. Acknowledging it is an intelligent thing to do in this case.

However, dealing with taking or not taking drugs out of blind fear as opposed to intelligent, critically thought out decision making, just like using that thought process for any other topic, is foolish and can often produce sub-optimal results.

Why Do People Take Drugs?

There are only 2 underlying reasons why one would consider using drugs:

  1. To feel more sober (as is the expected intent of modern medicine usage)
  2. To feel less sober (get "fucked up" or "high")

What Are Good Reasons To Take Drugs?

There are only 3 good reasons someone would be hesitant or resistant to taking a drug:

  1. They are not well-informed about the drug's effects (in which case, if any interest is present, they should research)
  2. They are well-informed about the drug's effects, want to do the drug, but they are afraid they would not be able to control their usage patterns as their usage period progresses (in which case, definitely keep reading)
  3. They are well-informed about the drug's effects (positive and negative), and feel they do not desire them (not out of fear, but simply out of knowledge of what to expect being undesired changes for that person). This is a further justified reason if the person in question has at least tried a very low dose of the drug before and has gauged its effects on their body.

Why Do People Get Addicted To Drugs?

There is only one reason people get addicted to drugs:

While taking them, they do not pay attention to usage patterns and do not use the drug in a critically thought out, tame fashion. Instead, they use it in a much more mindless, gradually accumulative way which gradually increases dosage to the point that they eventually need a certain amount of the drug to simply feel normal.

They do not take any kind of usage breaks (as they are not even attempting to seriously determine if it is necessary) to achieve normality without any of the drug in their system, which over time, forms a true physical (and possibly also mental) dependence on the drug.

Should I Do __ Drug?

Only licensed doctors are legally qualified to tell you to take a drug, and even then, they mess up regularly too. It's not about perfection, it's about critically thinking the usage scenario and context through, and reducing potential for harm to the maximum extent possible while still having sufficient reason to believe the desired effects will be achieved.

If there is a desire to do a drug, strong enough to even really be considering it, fear should not be a limiting factor in potential usage. One should do adequate research on the drug in question beforehand, and always start taking a very low dose (a "threshold" dose) to be able to efficiently identify all notable effects the drug in question has on their body during the onset of its effects.

If you start with a very safe dose, the worst that could happen is you don't feel much or any real noticeable differences, however you are protecting yourself very efficiently from any potential to form an addiction from inappropriate, excessive early usage (which is likely how most, if not all, drug addicts go wrong when starting their usage).

If no notable effects were felt, the dose can be slightly increased with progressive usages (keeping within safe bounds) in order to be able to safely, carefully, and efficiently decide on ideal dosage amounts.

I would stay far away from any drugs that don't have at least reasonably well-established dosage thresholds. If there's even the slightest possibility that you could overdose and die from a dose simply because you don't know what amount is actually accepted as safe to take, it's fiend-level and addict behavior to consume any quantity of such drugs.

How Do I Find The Ideal Dosage?

An ideal dosage will of course vary depending on the core intent of the drug user in taking the drug. Obviously, when one starts taking a drug strictly to feel less sober (get "high"), as in probably most recreational use contexts, the potential for abuse is increased, which means even more care must be taken in the dosage amounts and frequencies in order to safely prevent abusive usage patterns from forming.

Remember, taking a drug to get high does not mean you will form a habit. It is consequent usages, seeking a more intense "high", particularly at increasingly frequent intervals, that forms a habit.

Usage Patterns

It is important to always keep in mind current and past usage patterns; dosage amounts and frequencies, noting the effects achieved from them.

By constantly criticizing your usage patterns in your head, you will be better able to determine when you see an abusive usage pattern forming, and being aware of this is the best way to protect yourself from any serious abusive usage patterns forming.

By being aware if usage is becoming abusive, one can then quickly and easily take measures to reverse the process early on, while still easily doable, as opposed to when they are far into destructive usage patterns.

You Need Self-Control, Discipline, and Critical Thinking

In the end, the most important point to keep in mind is that it is not the drug that gets you addicted, it is how you use the drug that forms an addiction.

The fault is not on the drug, but the user. Likewise, the responsibility to prevent getting addicted is also on the user, not the drug.

A drug user can potentially be addicted to any drug, but it is the user themselves (specifically their usage patterns) which caused the addiction.

It is the user's responsibility to use the drug responsibly; the drug will not magically produce a predefined, fixed degree of effects which inherently protects a user from addictive potential, it is up to the user to dose in a fashion that will be productive to their quality of life, and not the other way around.

With these things in mind, any drug used will not form an addiction and will have a beneficial impact on an individual's life during the usage period.