She has voice yet cannot be heard.
She has appearance yet cannot be seen.
She has thought yet cannot be comprehended.
She is the essence of fear.
Towards the end of 2019, I released a book. I was extremely stressed out and feeling hopeless, and I took all my mental breakdowns, compiled the most wild, aggressive, and brutal piece of literature I could fathom, and shared it with the world. I know I'm capable of single-handedly destroying this world, and I thought I'd have to do it and there was no way to avoid it, no matter how badly I wanted to.
Shortly after the release and massive public exposure of that book, a global pandemic started, just as I'd been told would happen. I first witnessed it unfolding from jail (and for some period, a mental hospital), and although I'd approved it and knew I was dealing with some very powerful and dangerous people who I certainly believed could pull it off, it still seemed surreal to me.
The COVID-19 pandemic that started in 2020 serves as a warning shot to the world. It's certainly more than that for some, but I'll focus on my purpose for approving it, as I don't really care for the other stuff being achieved with it.
At the core of what drove me to write the initial version of the book was my seemingly hopeless connection with a woman named Kimi Park, a live streamer on Twitch who I've been pursuing an extremely serious romantic relationship with for about three years as of the start of 2020. That book got me in trouble, but it also showed me that I might not be as hopeless as I thought. As I was about to completely give up hope on humanity forever and enter isolation, Kimi started losing her mind and having frequent mental breakdowns to the point that she decided to start therapy. That's why this book exists.
I was, still am, and always will be extremely attached to Kimi. I must get to marry her and spend my life with her. If Kimi doesn't start treating me properly and being in a proper and healthy relationship with me before I completely give up hope on humanity forever and decide to commit to being the worst monster I could ever be, COVID-19 is only the beginning of much worse things to come.
Kimi doesn't have much time left to start treating me properly, and most people would probably tell me I'm extremely stupid and delusional for thinking there's any remote chance she ever would, so past this point, you're mostly going to just be reading pretty much the story of why the world is going to become a literal hell and I'm going to end up an extremely brutal heartless dictator after years of using quantum energy harvesting meditation techniques for long hours in isolation out of perpetual sadness and anger that deeply permeates the core of my being for the rest of my existence.
There are two kinds of crazy people in this world.
Let there be truth.